Everyone loved Brian. He was a soft-spoken, kind, easy going and loving boy. He had a child-like manner at times. He was teased at times by his friends by them calling him "a mama's boy". Brian and I were extremely close. He was the "light of my life." He was the type of son who would always call on me or his Dad for our opinion on any major decision. He lived at home off and on after graduating from high school. He was living at home when he died on May 9, 2005.

Brian was a sports enthusiast. When he was younger he played soccer, basketball and ran track. He acquired many trophies, many taking first place in soccer. He would watch any sport on television with great enthusiasm.

He took his first job at Sears in the Parts Department when he was 16 years old. He met the mother of his child there. He graduated from Union High school while he continued to work at Sears. Brian worked there for about 4 years. He was very conciencious about his job and was a hard worker. His hobbies were golf, movies, working out (weight lifting and jogging), pool, and eventually his son (Zachary Blaine Bolding).

Brian moved out of our home after graduation and rented an apartment with his girlfriend to be there for the birth of his child who was born on December 7, 1994. He loved his child dearly. He bonded with his son immediately. He pitched in and helped keep the house clean, changed diapers, cooked and held down a full-time job. Brian accepted his responsibilities. I did try to teach him responsibility. However, when anyone becomes addicted to drugs things change, their priorities change. It is a terrible sickness!

After 2 years, he and his girlfriend separated and Brian moved back home. He spent time with Zachary whenever he could. For a few years, Zach was over every other weekend, and a month in the summer. Brian took a job at Boise Cascade Lumber Company. He worked there a total of 5 years and was a model employee.

After about 2-1/2 years, Brian decided to move out of our home and move in with a buddy whom he had grown up with. Unfortunately, this buddy was a drug addict. His so-called friend lived by himself in a home his mother bought him. He never worked a day in his life. He sold drugs as well as took them. Brian stayed away from the drugs in the beginning. Brian met a girl and dated her about 9 months. They decided to move in together, and rented a two bedroom house. She was several years younger than Brian, and not quite ready to settle down. She was also jealous of my grandson. This relationship did not last.

Brian was laid off from his job at Boeing, International in 2001, and in the same week, his girlfriend left him. He was devastated. Brian decided to move back in with the same so-called friend This was the beginning of Brian's demise. He was 24 years old at that time. This house was like a "Sports Bar". Guys coming and going, a lot of them old Union High School friends. It was amazing to me how many of them were experimenting with drugs. Most of these boys came from Christian families. Anyway, Brian began taking Oxycontin and Xanax. This friend he lived with finally entered into the Methadone Clinic due to his addiction to other drugs. Brian decided to try the Methadone. This is what killed him. Brian died from toxic poisoning (not overdose) from this KILLER drug, METHADONE!

Drugs can absolutely devastate a family. The person's priorities change, their demeanor changes and they usually can't kick the habit by themselves. Brian tried several times. I watched my son go thru hell trying. I went thru hell watching him. Brian did not spend as much time with Zachary during this period because he didn't want him to know about his addiction. It reached a point where my son did not want to be on drugs. I tried to get him to enter a facility, but he just had too much pride, he told me he would do it on his own. He died two weeks later from toxic poisoning from a small amount of Methadone and 2 10 mg. of diazapam!

To any of you out there who are experimenting with this drug or even thinking about trying it, don't! Please get help immediately!!! Talk to someone, a pastor, or crisis center. Think of your loved ones. This is a dangerous drug with or without any other drugs taken with it.

One of the most important things in drug recovery is to break away from all of the old gang! It's almost virtually impossible to recover if you don't. There is too much temptation there, and the drugs just gain too much control over your body.

I lost the love of my life. I will never be the same again. It's been almost two years and I still cry for him every single day! Losing Brian has ruined mine and my family's life. My heart is broken!!!!!!!!

Carol Bolding